Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Have you ever not been able to sleep an ENTIRE night? I remember when I was in high school and it was the end of a term, a friend and I would stay up all night and do 2-3 book reports in one night. Did I grow attached to that bleary-eyed, strung out, zombie feeling? Is that why my body just refuses to sleep sometimes? About 68% of nights, I can't fall asleep at a normal time, but I do fall asleep eventually - whether it is 3 am or 5 am... I do fall asleep. This is actually better than it used to be. The 30% of nights that I do fall asleep and it isn't too difficult, are just delicious. But every once in a while, (last night) one of these nights will pop up and I lie there and then try all the tricks in the book, and then lie there again..... and nothing. My sleep buttons are all turned off. Sometimes I don't even mind being awake at night. It is wonderfully quiet and free of interruptions. Sometimes I even get a little energy at night and that is when I can get some things done -usually even better than I can in the daytime. But when you are so exhausted that you can barely stand up, yet you can't do the one thing your body is craving more than anything...fall asleep. What's up with that?!
I am off to bed soon... maybe tonight will at be least one of the 68%!